Songs of Heart

February 28, 2012

spiritToday I decided to make song list which contain songs that make my mood shifted. I rarely attach to specific song for a long time. It’s odd that I can perfectly spell the lyric but absolutely forgot the title. My sister notices it one day and told me so. I just laughed that time. But it’s true. I can easily follow the lyric when the song’s played.

And, my mood today was rather mellow. My favorite internet radio was playing BSB and Westlife songs this noon until afternoon. Well, when I’m on my way home, my playlist is ridiculously mellow too. The hell it happen. I’ll just put a note for each song which influenced me most both spirit or rather fall me down. I only made it top 10 songs though.

1. Sanctuary – Origene

“So free of judgment, this is yours to share with who you wish”

This song is one of sound track of one TV series. Search it and you’ll know what series. It told us that sometime we need a sanctuary, where we can be as free as we can. No need to hide and so free of judgment. So it says.

2. No Body Wants to be Lonely – Ricky Martin & Christina Aguilera

“No body wants to be lonely, so why don’t you let me love you”

Just like my other article about alone and lonely, this song is just straight to it. Listen to it when you mellow and somehow you’ll find it cheering you—or rather even drowning you more in distress, just pick one. Take the positive side that when you feel lonely, there’re many people around that ready to love you, care for you.

3. Everyone – BSB

“We’re standing strong cause of what you’ve done”

Yaps! I’m strong because so many thing that happen around me. Take the falling, happy, sad, and everything happen in our life is a gift. Make us even stronger to stand the life. Not stuck and stop, regretting what was or would happen. Just keep your dream as high as it should. I believe we can take the fall and pain. Although it scattered us, the pieces will unite again somehow. It takes time, but it will whole again.

4. It’s My Life – Bon Jovi

“It’s now or never! And I ain’t gonna live forever”

Nah, the energetic song ever. This is our fucking life. Don’t let anyone make any decision for you. You’re responsible for yourself. Make mistakes then fix them and never repeat the same. Take any chance you like, try anything interesting you, walk path as you want to. Considering others feeling is important, but in the end you’re the one who take the final decision for your life. If you let anyone decide for you, you might blame him/her when it come to no avail.

5. Change the World – Westlife

“How can I change the world? Coz I’m sure can’t change your mind”

This quite fit in one condition I’ve been experienced back then. That my friends saw me as an intruder of some relationship, accusing for something I didn’t do. Well I DO explain them what really happen in my version but they obviously still didn’t believe me. So, I just let that continue. I won’t force them understand me, only they can change their POV about me. It takes them long enough to realize what really happen, and that we’re friend again.


6. Incomplete – BSB

“But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete”

This is the mellow one of all. I won’t take much to this song. It depends on our situation to have an impression of this song. That it’s about partnership, friendship, familiarity, humanity, so universal. So, which one you take?

7. Closer to Me – Five

“I don’t think you understand what you’re doing to me”

This one is mellow too, very easy listening. I can’t describe what’s exactly in my head when I listening this song. Just a “carried away” thought I guess.

8. White Flag – Dido

“There will be no white flag above my door, I’m in love and always will be”

That’s sweet. I’m relating it with never give up on everything we believe. It will be fruit one day. And if it isn’t any fruit, perhaps you must see it different way. There’s nothing useless in what we’re doing in surviving for life—it’s just my opinion, eh.

9. More Than Words – Westlife

“More than words is all you have to do to make it real”

This is an old song. Don’t just make a plan but DO the plan you’ve made. Planning without doing is nothing and doing without planning is reckless. Haha!!

10. One Step at A Time – Jordin Sparks

“One step at a time, there’s no need to rush”

This is the wisest suggestion for me. Take it one step at a time. If you can handle it, then you may take another step. Sometimes we take a step backward to only move more steps forward.

That’s my top 10 mood song for today. Take the up and down wisely. Don’t overreact about what happen—it’s easy to say than do! And yeah! It’s my life. I’m allowed to make my own mistakes. Other will tell me what’s best but only me who knew well what really I am. I’m so grateful for my life.


A Reflection: Alone & Lonely

February 25, 2012

Alone and lonely are two different things. Not always when we are alone, we feel lonely. But we could feel lonely while we’re surrounded by people. That’s depend on how we see things.


Alone happen to be a condition when we are not with anyone. In some occasion, we need to be alone for a while. Whether to think, to mourn, to celebrate, or else having me time is a blessing. Imagine if we’ve been suffocated but not having some room to breathe. Then what will happen? Collapse, or even die?

Lonely is a different one. It’s not just a condition. It’s very connected with feeling. Like we left by someone we loved the lost mostly left an empty space. That way if we’re so familiar with their existence once we lost them emptiness led us to feeling lonely. It can go for short or long term depends on how we manage the loss. We can be in the middle of people but still not feeling their presence.

I think we’re all need sanctuary where we can free our emotions reveal what’s inside and throw away the pain. After we release all the pain inside, I think we’d rather think clearly for whatever problem happen. A place for us to feel free to cry, laugh no need to be ashamed if we need some space to breathe and relax.

This is just a ramble of me… don’t take it to the heart if you don’t want to. So, enjoy your day!!

Watch Your Mouth!!

February 25, 2012

It seems too correct to say that “your mouth is your tiger” [correct me if I so rudely translate it wrong way]. We better careful about what we said to others.

tigerToday’s events make me realize it. Actually there’re two events that finally make me decide to write this down on my blog. Not that these events were bad enough to others but also make me rethink what have I said before.

What Mother Say and Not to Say to Her Baby

First. It’s nearly my break time from work. As usual, we’ll buy some snack from the jamu seller. It kinda habit that we share news, what happen around neighborhood. Who date who and something light conversations. Today’s topic is—I don’t know how it begin—but my boss suddenly said that she’ll give her baby boy a potion which can make him “strong” when he’s older enough. We all know clearly the implication of the word “strong” before she said “so all the girls willingly put down their pants to satisfy him.” God! How could she say something like that?

Common mother will protect their babies from any harm including harsh languages. Hell, what actually happen to her? Well, I really don’t know how to respond. Her babysitter is mumbling something that she disagrees with her mistress. Who would agree with that?? I thought I lost my senses for a while.

We know that my boss often talk dirty and very blunt in explaining the S thing. But in front of her baby? That’s just seems so wrong. And when I have my break time at 3 pm one of my friends gave comment. She said that “mother’s talk is a pray” and she can’t think that my boss will ever want to do that thing. I keep my mouth shut. Don’t want to make the fire more flame.

That simple statement aiming to be just joke became something seriously considered by us. I know that her baby boy won’t understand what she said. But I have opinion that baby’s brain is absorbing everything from his sight, hearing, smell, touch. If they continue to hear such improper language I’m afraid that they’ll be as much improper person. I’ll stop first event in this point.

mannerTV Show Incident

Second. I used to talk with my friend during work by Twitter. It’s simplest media to have conversation with other beside YM. In the afternoon she said that she’d been upset from something. She doesn’t want to tell me what’s wrong simply just said that I should go check her Twitter status. I said I don’t have much time to read hers and promise her to read it after I got home. And I do read and try to find what makes her upset. It’s about the phrase again!! Can you believe it? What a coincidence.

The matter is we have a live music show on TV every day. I’m familiar with this show and it quite popular among teenager. As a music show, it has hosts, guest stars and definitely a lot of audience. One of the hosts happened to be such a big mouth. I don’t know how he became a host if his talent was so low. He often mocking the guest stars and said rude words during the show. I simply consider his joke is inappropriate and that he must improve his manner and quality of talent. Not to mention how many mistakes and apologies he had made that he always repeat the habit.

In today’s show though, it seems like the show have guest star from abroad that barely understand our language. Obviously that certain host had no manner made some joke which finally had the entire fans of the guest angry. I won’t tell what he said cause I don’t watch the show nor read the so called tragedy on news. That action result many counteract from the guest’s fans which include banning all membership of every IP detected to be from our country. It is a disaster that ONE man can cause such a hate wave for every people in my country. Hell!! Even now he didn’t realize what he’s doing and everyone now is mocking him, bashing him with every rude word they had.

That’s it, what way to better watched our mouth when we wanna say something. May be it’s just slipped from our mouth. But when we realize that it’s wrong, we better admit it and make amend. And also we have to behave in front of people if we don’t want to be the center of hatred. Manner is important in all the way that we do. We should learn from our mistake. Not to repeat it again from time to time, eliminate bad habit.

I’m quite bit irritating now that such a good show—according to public—became the source of hate wave because of only one person. Well then, I better shut my mouth up if I don’t really know the matter of the topic. Avoiding tragedy as far as I could.

Ransel dan [Bukan] Koper

February 21, 2012

Ransel–rucksack [slash] backpack–always be my favorit!! No doubt. I love ransel.


Ransel sudah jadi ciri khas saya sejak dulu. Kalau temen cewek yang lain pada pake tas cantik, saya masih setia pake ransel. Malahan ransel kuning saya zaman kuliah dulu dijulukin kulkas. Why is it so? Karena isinya lengkap. Apa aja ada.

Saya ini emang paling ga bisa kalo benda-benda pribadi jauh dari jangkauan. Jadi saya rasa ransel itu tetap jadi pilihan yang terbaik.

1. Ransel gampang dicangklong. Seimbang antara pundak kiri dan kanan. Ga kaya tas cantik yang ngebawanya ribet. Pindah dari pundak kiri ke pundak kanan, terus pidah lagi.

2. Muatan ransel banyak. Mendukung bawaan saya yang notabene komplit–menurut standar saya.

3. Ngga ketinggalan zaman. Ransel bisa abadi sepanjang masa :D–menurut saya sih. Kalau tas cantik sering ganti model, yang namanya ransel ngikutin gaya tapi bentuknya ya garis besarnya sama lah.

4. Tahan lama. Dan ini adalah keuntungan ransel. Sekali beli ransel, bisa tahan sampe bertahun-tahun. Kalo tas cantik? Yah, ga selama ransel lah, kecuali emang jarang dipake.

Nah, karena saking ngefans-nya saya pake ransel, akhirnya ada yang memanggil saya kura-kura. Hahaha.. tidak mengejutkan. Saya jadi keliatan bawa tempurung kemana-mana :D. Masih untung bukan keong. ^^V

Ransel saya yang sekarang udah bertahan hampir 3 tahun. Hmm.. sudah saatnya ganti siy sebenarnya. Bagian dalemnya udah sobek-sobek. Tapi saya masih sayang mau gantinya, habisnya bagian luarnya masih bagus. Jahitannya juga ga ada yang jebol. Eh, jadi sebenernya saya ini hemat apa pelit siy? Wkwkwkkwkwk…

Anyway, kalo ada yang mau sharing tas apa yang paling cocok. Monggo dikomen saja.